Crocheting.

(My first [well made] Granny Squares)

Crocheting is a good part of my life. I taught myself around this time last year how to crochet. I saw a picture of someone with a hook looking thing and a ball of yarn and thought, "Hey! That looks like fun!" and that's how I started my love of crocheting!

I enjoy crocheting very much. I crochet items more often for others than myself. I have a granny square blanket that I don't think I'll ever stop working on (due to the fact when I made the thing I still had no idea what I was truly doing), it comes undone sometimes do to my poor sewing skills with a huge needle. 

My grandmother is the one to blame for my love of creating and making. My mom's mom (Grammy) taught me how to sew and cross stitch when I was old enough to ask her to teach me. But I wasn't very good at it. I mean for a child that age I did very well looking back at all my projects, but it was never truly in my heart to WANT to continue. 

As soon as I picked up my first crocheting hook, I knew I would be hooked. HAHA!
I have gone on to teach others close to me how to crochet and they all enjoy it. But only one of the three or four I've taught have truly enjoyed crocheting along with me.
I'm posting this because it's about that time I start cracking down on crocheting items for Christmas :) 

Wrong Hallway

In high school they have a program called Senior Project. Where students (seniors) leave campus the last class of the day and volunteer where ever they want. I picked my old elementary school, when I arrived I explained to the principal I wanted to help 1st or 2nd graders. She said that sounded great and she would place me in a classroom the next day.
I arrived excited to start working with younger children. She then took me to the 4th and 5th grade hallway. Confusing... I asked for 1st and 2nd grade which is the other hallway on the other side of the building. She then walked to the CDC-A room (Special Education classroom) door and opened it up. I didn't pause, I walked right in, the teacher was lovely made me feel welcome. Introduced me to all the children in the class a small room of 6 or 7.

This was not the class I wanted to be in, I was somewhat upset because I was very clear on what I wanted walking into the school. But as I sat there (somewhat upset/confused) a little boy rolled up and touched my face. Looked me right in the eye and touched my face. The 2nd day I knew right then and there God sent me to this classroom. He knew what I wanted and sent me what I NEEDED. 
At that point in my life I had no idea what I wanted to do in college. I knew I wanted to get a higher education but I had zero clue what I wanted to do. But once God placed me in that classroom and that little boy touched my face and my heart I knew what I wanted to do.
I know no one else will read this, this is mainly for me to look back on later in life. To see how young and hopeful I am at this point in my life. I hope to be working with Special Needs children for the rest of my life I hope that happens. Maybe it will maybe it won't, time will tell :)

My Life as of Now.

I feel as though I should update this more. But seeing that no one but myself reads it I guess it doesn't matter. I created you my lovely blog in order to type out how I feel now, like right now, how I'll feel tomorrow, and maybe a few weeks from now. I feel as though my life is always changing.
Many of the people I graduated high school with are married, have children, getting ready to have children, or getting ready to have their second or third child, or all of the above. I am happy for all of them, but their so young and it makes me feel like everything is moving way to fast. It scares me the thought of marriage and children.. But I do in fact long for the day I'm settled down with the love of my life, in a house, working as a teacher, spending my nights cooking for my husband, and dreaming with him about the day we have children. But my life is always changing right now. I love the idea of everything being WIDE open. My fears are normal I guess. But it scares me to think about how far "behind" I am from everyone else. But I've never truly been right along side everyone my age.

Classes are flying by, I have three classes I need in the Spring and I will be done with this chapter of my life. I will be moving from a college I've attended for three years of my life and moving to a college where I will finish up my degree, I am both very excited and scared at the same time.

My mom and dad always told me I can do anything I set my mind to. Anything. I got a new tattoo (my second) on the inside of my arm. I strongly believe in the quote. 

Crocheting is going well :) finished my aunt's Christmas gift. Very happy with it.

In a month I will turn 21.
This brings with it new and exciting feelings.